rant. rant. rant. blah. blah. blah.

I feel worn out. Lost. Uncomfortable. Out of place. Sad. I crave attention. I want to be alone. My tooth hurts. I'm sick of headaches. I'm sick of feeling left out. I want a job. I want school to start. I'm bored with life. I want love. I want my best friend to stop hurting. I want money. I want new clothes. I want cute sandals. I want to lose weight. I want my nephew to be nice to me. I don't want my cousin to leave. I want my dad to come home for at least a week before going back out to work. I want a clean room. I want a haircut. I miss ALL of my friends. and I think I am done complaining now.

I'm so sick of being so emotional all the time. I hate relying on people. Especially when they make a big deal when I ask for something. I don't like relying on people, I'd rather do it myself. I hate imposing. I hate not being able to cry. Crying always helps. My freakin' tooth hurts! ahhh.

this is my immature rant.. read it.. don't read it.. either way I hope you have a good night!

Is 40:31 Yet those who WAIT for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.

I love this verse.. even though I'm feeling quite the opposite. God never fails me :)

I know I'm weird...

and single.. nor really had my first kiss yet, but this kind of thing is something I like to dream about :)

so here are the songs that I want played at my wedding... <3
1. We belong together- Ritchie Valens
2. I want to Hold your Hand- The Beatles
3. Cinderella- Steven Curtis Chapman (aww I love my dad)
4. Jesse's girl- Rick Springfield (because my dad changed the lyrics.. :) "I wish that I had Jessie girl!")
5. Always and Forever- Luther Vandross

there's a ton more.. I'll add em later :)